Weddings & Friendships

Just got back from a classmate's wedding...MJ is my sec sch classmate and also from the same batch of GB girls...MJ's seriously looks so happy and blissful..Happy for u girl..Congrats =) Indeed, memories of GB times where we used to play together, compete against one another at intersquad competitions and plan camps together flooded my mind as i sat at Tower ballroom, Shangri-la Hotel...Reali, i miss those times where we has sooooooooooooo much fun! oh my gosh! =) Well, i was glad i went to the wedding after all...was apprehensive abt meeting ppl agn after so many yrs but it turned out GREAT! =) Enjoyed myself thoroughly seeing everyone again and catching up here n there...everyone's still preeeety much the same, their mannerisms, character and all....Above all, the bond we share remains though silently but, very graciously...

MJ did not have a church wedding which kinda showed me that, among the many things that have not changed, one important thing did..which is her faith in Jesus...I apologise that i am saying this here, but reali, in such a happy occasion, the saddest part is, a very gd fren has chosen to live a life with man but without Christ..somehow, my heart sank...i'm sorry MJ... yes i am happy that she is married and enjoying a life ahead with the one she loves...yet, the one that loves her the most doesnt seem to take 1st place anymore.....indeed it is a pity... Guess we christian friends of MJ out there will just have to continue praying for MJ and Jon...that one day their hearts will turn to Him for everlasting joy and peace...

Back to weddings and friends..the friends part done..now for weddings....Hmm...Strangely, i was surprised..the me in the past wld go "Aw......when's my turn?", "How i wish it was me...", "Wld mine be as sweet...?" etc..but today, Nah....whether its coz i'm numb or have harden myself from such feelings of 'envy' i dont know..but one thing im sure of is that, i am slowly beginning to find my fulfilment in Christ more than man... =P Not that men, the species from Mars are yknw...anything less..it's just that when our hope is in the One who loves us the most, the love of man simply cannot compare..and so, feelings of emptiness and longing just don't well up at weddings that cause me to yearn for such a romance..Instead, i pray for God's love to fill me so deeply that i can experience His love everyday of my life, married or not.........Marriage is about trust and love, i'm sure everyone agrees...Till i can completely surrender my life, my dreams and ambitions to the Author of unconditional love, marriage is not on the list as of now... =P

Yes, indeed, Jesus, Help me to keep my eyes on You coz when You are the focus of our lives and we are in the center of Your will, we cease to worry about what we will eat, what we will wear, and in light of tonight's theme, who we will spend the rest of our lives with. This You have assured us in Your Word. So, Lord help me to remember this always, and persevere in placing You above all that's in my life..coz Lord, we are, foremost, Your 'bride'...Thank you Jesus... =)