Tribute of His grace & guidance....

As i pondered on my essay for a scholarship application in view of my studies in forensic psychology next yr, the Lord's blessings and providence were brought to mind once again...
Indeed, i would like to pay tribute and give all glory and honour to Jesus my Lord who has prepared the way ahead of me, long before i knew it all....

I remember how 1 night 5 yrs ago, at a youth camp during the last nite of worship and prayer, I struggled with thoughts that psychology may not be what He wants for me..i was so fearful that the Lord's plan for me was not one in the psychology realm so to speak...I rememb how i cried out for His grace and mercy and how i begged Him that it wld be His desire, as much as mine, for me to pursue psychology as a life-goal...for at that time, i did not knw what His will was for me.. All i had in my head was, "pls Lord let it be psychology..." Of course that was in a way the wrong mentality...but as i look back, i learn that when we willingly humble ourselves before Him, He chooses gentleness and grace over judegment...and i'm thankful that our loving Father has chosen to grant me the desires of my heart as i sought, so desperately, 5 yrs ago to discover His true purpose for me.....

With my previous valuable experience in SPS and my current experiences at IMH and MCYS, it is clear that His grace has brought me into this world of forensic psychology - my passion and heart's desire....As i learn more each day about psychology at work in forensic settings, indeed, i am assured that this burden for perpetrators and victims are not of my own but the Lord''s...I am but His instrument...and i hope that this passion and spirit of mercy He has placed within my heart and life for the prisoners will not burn out.....as it is said in His Word in Psalm 79:11 "May the groans of the prisoners come before You; by the strength of Your arm preserve those condemned to die. "

In Isaiah 61: 1b, Isaish prophesied the Year of the Lord's favour where he was given a mission : He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim freedom for the captives and release from darkness for the prisoners..." As i reflect on this verse, I believe it is the Lord's desire and call for all who believe in Him to be ambassadors of Christ, vessels of mercy and instruments of blessing to ALL...including prisoners...So, as His child, I pray that He will help me hide His Word in my heart and through stressful times in the field, this verse will serve to remind me of His calling and grace in my life.....

Thank you Jesus....Continue to preserve me as i seek to serve You in this field of forensic psychology...Help me to remember that it is You who placed me here and given me the grace to carry on..Strengthen my heart Lord....Amen...